I suffer from depression and take 8-9 pills daily to keep major bouts at arms length. It had been a long struggle for the past 12 - 14 years. My recent late nights of kopi has taken it's toll and hit me pretty bad this late morning. Igot crazy heart palpatations and by 4pm I was a nervous wreck. It was irritating to fight the irrational thoughts of... Quitting my job... Ending life... Or stupid stuff like to light up a cigarette in the office.
I believe one of the factors keeping me from major relapses since my marriage has been the routine and improved sleeping habits. I typically sleep around or before midnight. Anything later than that is basically a sure sign of a pretty bad panic attack or gloomy days a couple of days later.
I smoked five cigarettes today. I aim to smoke less but this doom and gloom is not helping.
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must be the bills
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